>
> Same day but another year,
> Another smile,another tear.
> Life goes on but I'm stuck in the past.
> How much longer will this last?
> My heart is broken,I'm in so much pain.
> Tears fall,like a downpour of rain.
> Intrusive memories,flashbacks too.
> All this because i lost you!
> It's hard for anyone to understand my plight.
> Its hard to see how much I really do fight.
> True! At times I lived my life by the sword,
> But oh how I wished I could cut that cord!
> The cord that binds me to my pain,
> And makes me feel like I'm going insane.
> This thing that started as a seed,
> And grew into a horrible weed.
> Now I live in my home made cell.
> No doors or windows,not even a bell!
> No matter how hard I scream n shout
> I know it's only I who can let myself out.
> This is what I have been trying to do,
> But I can't seem to forget what happened to you!
> I will fight on but not in vain,
> And I will rid myself of this unwanted pain.
> I will heal and live once more.
> I'll fight this from my very core.
> And when I'm finding it hard to cope,
> I'll live by the belief that there's always hope.
> I know I have met the devil in disguise,
> He was standing right before my very eyes!
> He said he'd help rid me of my pain,
> And get me back on my path once again.
> His heart was as black as a piece of coal,
> And I very nearly did sell him my soul.
> But in the dark,there was also a light.
> It came from nowhere and was very bright.
> As it moved closer the brighter it became,
> And it was also calling my name.
> It was so breathtaking I fell to my knees.
> It told me it had also heard my pleas'.
> The light was warm and full of love.
> I knew it had come from the Lord above.
> I had a choice of which path to take.
> The choice alone was mine to make.
> This wasn't an easy thing to do,
> As there was a chance I could be with you.
> But then I realised this wasn't my time,
> And if I did it would be a crime.
> So in the end,I decided to choose life.
> Along with all its troubles and strife.
> Really I just needed a shove,
> Cos here, I'm totally surrounded by love.
> There are still times I do forget,
> But life still hasn't beaten me yet.
> I won't beg or ever say please,
> I'll rid myself of this awful disease!
> I know I will prove all my critics wrong.
> I will stand proud and sing my song.
> I now don't care what anyone should say,
> Coz I'll fight this illness till my dying day!
> *To be completed. By moi :)
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